Bir bald\u0131z\u0131m var, bu sene 18 ya\u015f\u0131na girdi, ama afet mi afet bir \u015fey\u2026 Her g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde akl\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131mdan al\u0131yor. Yuvarlak hatlar\u0131yla, s\u00fctyenlerine s\u0131\u011fmayan g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleriyle, y\u00fcr\u00fcrken iki yana sallanan ta\u015f gibi kal\u00e7alar\u0131yla, a\u00e7\u0131k sa\u00e7\u0131k giyimiyle tam bir afet\u2026 Hele o g\u00f6t\u00fc yok mu, resmen kuduruyorum bald\u0131z\u0131n o g\u00f6t\u00fc i\u00e7in\u2026<\/p>\n
Bald\u0131z\u0131m ge\u00e7en aya kadar ailesiyle kal\u0131yordu, ge\u00e7en ay \u0130zmir\u2019de \u00fcniversiteye ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130zmir\u2019de oturdu\u011fu daire bir apartman\u0131n \u00e7at\u0131 kat\u0131\u2026 \u00c7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in bald\u0131z\u0131n ta\u015f\u0131nmas\u0131na yard\u0131m edememi\u015ftim. O hafta sonu kar\u0131mla birlikte bald\u0131z\u0131 ziyaret etmeye ve bald\u0131z\u0131n evinde bir gece kalmaya karar verdik.<\/p>\n
Sabah yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k, \u00f6\u011flende bald\u0131z\u0131mdayd\u0131k. Bald\u0131z\u0131ma ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ev hediyelerini verdik. Evde biraz dinlenip ho\u015fbe\u015ften sonra d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k ve bald\u0131z bize \u0130zmir\u2019i gezdirdi.<\/p>\n
Ak\u015fama kadar dola\u015ft\u0131k. Ben de ak\u015fama kadar seksi bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n her yerini adeta i\u00e7tim. Abla karde\u015fi iki koluma takt\u0131m gezerken, iki koluma dayanan, s\u00fcrt\u00fcnen iki diri g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs, \u015fakala\u015farak g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015ferek doland\u0131k durduk. Art\u0131k iyice yorulmu\u015ftuk. Kar\u0131m,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u015eimdi yeme\u011fi kim yapacak, yorulduk, zaten ba\u015f\u0131m da a\u011fr\u0131yor, hem \u00e7ok ac\u0131kt\u0131m.\u201d deyince, pizza yapt\u0131rd\u0131k g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fck. Yeme\u011fimizi yedi\u011fimizde saat 22:00\u2019yi ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. Kar\u0131mla bald\u0131z masay\u0131 toplarlarken, ben de hediye ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z DVD oynat\u0131c\u0131y\u0131 kurdum, hemen denemek istiyordum. \u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Kar\u0131m,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u015eampanyay\u0131 getir de patlatal\u0131m hadi! Karde\u015fimin yeni evini, okulunu kutlayal\u0131m bu gece\u2026\u201d dedi. \u015eampanyalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yudumlarken, bald\u0131z filmlerden birini se\u00e7ti,<\/p>\n
\u201cBunu seyredelim!\u201d dedi. Bir korku filmiydi se\u00e7ti\u011fi. Kar\u0131m da hi\u00e7 sevmez korku filmini, hatta nefret eder, be\u015f dakika bile bakamaz,<\/p>\n
\u201cKorku filmi mi seyredece\u011fiz \u015fimdi, ba\u015fka bir \u015fey seyredelim!\u201d diye itiraz etti ve istedi\u011fi oldu. Komedi filmi seyrettik. Rahat olsun diye \u00fczerimizi de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015f, e\u015fofmanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 giymi\u015ftik. Saat yar\u0131m olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n
\u201cNe yap\u0131yoruz, yatal\u0131m m\u0131 art\u0131k?\u201d dedi kar\u0131m\u2026 Bald\u0131z,<\/p>\n
\u201cYaa abla, g\u0131c\u0131kl\u0131k etme de korku filmini seyredelim!\u201d dedi. Kar\u0131m da,<\/p>\n
\u201cBen seyretmem, siz eni\u015ftenle seyredin\u2026 Korkudan sabaha kadar n\u00f6bet tutturmay\u0131n bana\u2026 Hem ba\u015f\u0131m \u00e7atlayacak gibi, uykum da geldi! Ne haliniz varsa g\u00f6r\u00fcn, ben yat\u0131yorum \u00e7ocuklar, iyi geceler\u2026\u201d diyerek yatmaya gitti.<\/p>\n Bald\u0131zla ba\u015f ba\u015fa kalaca\u011f\u0131mdan benim keyfime diyecek yoktu. Asl\u0131nda korku filmlerini ben de pek sevmem, ama gecenin bir yar\u0131s\u0131 seksi bald\u0131z\u0131mla beraber film izleyecektim. O yan\u0131mda olduktan sonra ne seyretti\u011fimin \u00f6nemi yoktu.<\/p>\n Bald\u0131z salonun lambas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcp geldi, \u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc koltu\u011fa yan\u0131ma oturdu. Kalan \u015fampanyay\u0131 i\u00e7erek korku filmini seyretmeye ba\u015flad\u0131k. Film ilerledik\u00e7e korku ve gerilim art\u0131yordu. Bald\u0131z da her korkun\u00e7 sahnede \u00fc\u00e7 bu\u00e7uk at\u0131yor, bana iyice sokuluyordu. Ger\u00e7ekten berbat, korku verici, kanl\u0131 bir filmdi, baz\u0131 sahnelerde ben bile korkuyordum.<\/p>\n Ruhlar, cinler, \u015feytan\u0131n cirit att\u0131\u011f\u0131 filmin yar\u0131s\u0131na yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda art\u0131k bald\u0131z bana iyice sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ben de elimi omuzuna, koluna, zaman zaman s\u0131rt\u0131na ve beline at\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n B\u00fcy\u00fck ekran televizyonda korkun\u00e7 olaylar ger\u00e7ek gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6d\u00fc patlayan bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 kendime \u00e7ekerek v\u00fccudunu iyice v\u00fccuduma yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n Bald\u0131z\u0131n dokundu\u011fum her yeri yan\u0131yordu. \u0130\u00e7inde bulundu\u011fumuz durumdan o kadar mutluydum ki, \u015fu korku filmi hi\u00e7 bitmesin, s\u00fcrekli bana sar\u0131ls\u0131n diye dua ediyordum. Fakat bir s\u00fcre sonra,<\/p>\n \u201cEni\u015fte, filmi pauseye al da bir tuvalete gideyim!\u201d dedi. G\u00fclerek<\/p>\n \u201cSak\u0131n korkudan alt\u0131na ka\u00e7\u0131ray\u0131m deme\u2026\u201d diyerek filmi durdurdum. Bald\u0131z kalkt\u0131. Y\u00fcr\u00fcrken sanki bana biraz kafay\u0131 bulmu\u015f gibi geldi. \u0130ki yana sallanarak gidiyordu. Salonda sadece televizyonun \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131, bir hayli karanl\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n Daha salonun ortas\u0131na varmadan ko\u015farak geri geldi yan\u0131ma\u2026 Ben ne oldu\u011funu anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken, bana sar\u0131larak ve titreyen k\u00f6ftecik dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fczerek,<\/p>\n \u201cEni\u015fte\u2026 Ben \u00e7ok korkuyorum\u2026 Ne olur, beni tuvalete g\u00f6t\u00fcrsene!\u201d dedi\u2026<\/p>\n \u201cK\u0131z\u0131m abartma bu kadar, alt taraf\u0131 film i\u015fte\u2026\u201d dedim teselli etmek i\u00e7in ama bald\u0131z\u0131n bu iste\u011fini ikiletmedim tabii\u2026 Hemen kalkt\u0131m,<\/p>\n \u201cGel bakal\u0131m\u2026 Beraber gidelim. Yoksa ger\u00e7ekten ka\u00e7\u0131racaks\u0131n alt\u0131na\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cAbartm\u0131yorum eni\u015ftee\u2026\u201d dedi. \u201cAma ger\u00e7ekten korkuyorum. \u0130nan bana\u2026 Eve ta\u015f\u0131nal\u0131 ne kadar oldu? Daha al\u0131\u015famad\u0131m zaten\u2026 \u00d6d\u00fcm patl\u0131yor \u015fu anda\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n Bald\u0131zla birbirimize sar\u0131larak tuvalete do\u011fru gittik. Tuvaletin kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p lambas\u0131n\u0131 yakt\u0131m,<\/p>\n \u201cHadi gir de i\u015fini g\u00f6r!\u201d dedim. Bald\u0131z tuvalete girdi, tam kap\u0131y\u0131 kapatacakt\u0131m,<\/p>\n \u201cKapatma eni\u015fte, korkuyorum!\u201d dedi, ben de a\u00e7\u0131k b\u0131rakt\u0131m,<\/p>\n \u201cTamam a\u00e7\u0131k kals\u0131n. Sen i\u015fini g\u00f6r\u00fcrken ben de ablana bak\u0131p geleyim.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cNe olur gitme eni\u015fte\u2026 Korkuyorum diyorum sana\u2026 B\u0131rakma beni\u2026! \u015eampanyadan ba\u015f\u0131m d\u00f6n\u00fcyor zaten, y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131p kal\u0131cam \u015fimdi\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n Kap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda \u00f6ylece kalakald\u0131m. Bald\u0131z benim bakmama ald\u0131r\u0131\u015f etmeden, biraz da i\u00e7ti\u011fi \u015fampanyan\u0131n etkisiyle olmal\u0131, e\u015fofman\u0131n\u0131 dizlerine kadar s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131verdi.<\/p>\n Ben a\u011fz\u0131m bir kar\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131k hayretle izlerken ard\u0131ndan k\u00fclodunu da indirdi ve klozete oturdu, i\u015femeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde durdu\u011fum ve onu izledi\u011fim halde hi\u00e7 \u00e7ekinmiyor, mahcup bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fle bana bakarak i\u015fini g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n Heyecandan \u00f6lecektim nerdeyse\u2026 K\u00fclodunu s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131rken o kaymak gibi amc\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Hafif sar\u0131mt\u0131rak t\u00fcyleriyle \u00f6yle i\u015ftah a\u00e7\u0131c\u0131 bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcyd\u00fc ki\u2026<\/p>\n Bald\u0131z ise, sanki yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gayet normal bir \u015feymi\u015f gibi, g\u00f6zlerimin i\u00e7ine bak\u0131p g\u00fclerek i\u015fiyordu. O anda sikimin kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve e\u015fofman\u0131m\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc zorlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettim.<\/p>\n Anlamas\u0131n diye sol elimi e\u015fofman\u0131m\u0131n cebine sokup sikimi bast\u0131r\u0131yordum. \u0130\u015femesi bitince tuvalet ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131yla am\u0131n\u0131 kurulad\u0131, \u00f6nce k\u00fclodunu \u00e7ekti sonra da e\u015fofman\u0131n\u0131,<\/p>\n \u201cBittiiii!\u201d dedi g\u00fclerek. Ellerini y\u0131kad\u0131, yine birbirimize sar\u0131larak salona d\u00f6nd\u00fck.<\/p>\n Koltu\u011fa oturduk yine, birbirimize sar\u0131larak filmi kalan yerinden izlemeye devam ettik. Bu sefer ben elimi hafif hafif bald\u0131z\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131nda yukar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 ok\u015fayarak beline ve kal\u00e7alar\u0131na indiriyordum ve belli belirsiz bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fuyordum.<\/p>\n Bald\u0131z da ya ger\u00e7ekten filmden korktu\u011fundan, ya da ho\u015funa gitti\u011finden korkuyormu\u015f gibi yaparak, bana daha da sokuluyordu ve dirse\u011fini kalkm\u0131\u015f sikime bast\u0131r\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Film bitti\u011finde ikimiz de bir s\u00fcre hareket etmeden o pozisyonda kald\u0131k, ikimiz de kalkmak istemiyorduk. \u0130zmir bizim memleket gibi de\u011fildi. Merkezi bir semtteydik, insanlar sabaha kadar sokaklardayd\u0131, geziyor e\u011fleniyorlard\u0131. Sokaktan ba\u011f\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131 g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcl\u00fc sesler gelince, bald\u0131z,<\/p>\n \u201cSokakta kavga ediyorlar herhalde eni\u015fte, pencereden bakal\u0131m hadi!\u201d diyerek koltuktan kalkt\u0131, beni de elimden tutarak kald\u0131rd\u0131. Bald\u0131z \u00f6nde, eli arkas\u0131nda elimi tutarak salonun penceresine gittik.<\/p>\n Pencereyi a\u00e7t\u0131 ve pencerenin denizli\u011fine dirseklerini koyarak a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bak\u0131yordu. Ben ise bald\u0131z\u0131n tam arkas\u0131ndayd\u0131m. Arkaya \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f top gibi yuvarlac\u0131k g\u00f6t\u00fcne ve a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f beline, o a\u00e7\u0131kl\u0131ktan g\u00f6r\u00fcnen tanga k\u00fcloduna bakarak kalk\u0131k sikimi s\u0131vazl\u0131yordum. Offf\u2026 B\u00f6yle seksi bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc olamazd\u0131.<\/p>\n \u201cEni\u015fte, bak bak, birbirlerine \u015fi\u015fe at\u0131yorlar!\u201d deyince,<\/p>\n \u201cYapma ya\u2026 Dur ben de bakay\u0131m!\u201d diyerek bald\u0131z\u0131n arkas\u0131na kas\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131m ve \u00fczerine e\u011filerek a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bak\u0131yormu\u015f gibi yapmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n A\u015fa\u011f\u0131da kavga edenleri g\u00f6remiyordum, fakat umurumda da de\u011fildi. Benim derdim bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcne dayanmakt\u0131 ve bunu yap\u0131yordum. Bald\u0131z\u0131n yumu\u015fac\u0131k ve s\u0131cac\u0131k g\u00f6t\u00fc, e\u015fofmanlar\u0131m\u0131za ra\u011fmen sikimi ve kas\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 kavuruyordu.<\/p>\n \u00d6nce \u00fcrk\u00fctmemek i\u00e7in hareketsiz durdum arkas\u0131nda\u2026 Sonra bakt\u0131m hi\u00e7 bir tepki yok, k\u0131p\u0131rdanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Sikimi, bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc sikermi\u015f gibi, hafif hafif yukar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 oynat\u0131yor, ara s\u0131ra ileri bast\u0131r\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n Bu hareketlerimi biraz daha belirgin yap\u0131nca bald\u0131z\u0131n sesi ve hareketleri birden kesildi. Hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden ve hi\u00e7 k\u0131p\u0131rdamadan \u00f6ylece a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Bir an i\u00e7imden, (\u015eimdi boku yedim, \u015fimdi d\u00f6n\u00fcp tokad\u0131 patlatacak ve ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmaya ba\u015flayacak ve kar\u0131m\u0131 uyand\u0131racak, beni rezil edecek!<\/em>) diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ve kendime geldim. Arkas\u0131ndaki hareketlerime son verdim ve hafif\u00e7e geri \u00e7ekildim\u2026<\/p>\n Fakat bu sefer bald\u0131z g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc geriye iterek \u00f6n\u00fcme dayad\u0131 ve az \u00f6nce benim ona yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi, g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc yukar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 hareket ettirmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Bu resmen, bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n da bunu istedi\u011fi anlam\u0131na geliyordu.<\/p>\n Yine de kesin emin olmak i\u00e7in ellerimle bald\u0131z\u0131n yar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k belini iki yan\u0131ndan kavrad\u0131m ve hafif\u00e7e kendime \u00e7ektim. Ben \u00f6yle yap\u0131nca bald\u0131z da g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc daha \u00e7ok bast\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 sikime\u2026 Evet, art\u0131k bundan emindim. Bald\u0131z\u0131m da sevi\u015fmek istiyordu.<\/p>\n Yana yak\u0131la arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, hep hayalini kurdu\u011fum, d\u00fc\u015fleyerek otuzbirler \u00e7ekti\u011fim olay ger\u00e7ek oluyordu. Bald\u0131z\u0131mla sevi\u015fmek \u00fczereydik. \u0130nanam\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n Ellerimi biraz daha a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 kayd\u0131rarak, bald\u0131z\u0131n e\u015fofman\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f yava\u015f dizlerine kadar indirdim. Bald\u0131z\u0131n tangas\u0131n\u0131n ipi g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn aras\u0131na girmi\u015f, arkadan sanki g\u00f6t\u00fc \u00e7\u0131plakm\u0131\u015f gibi duruyordu. Arkas\u0131nda \u00e7\u00f6meldim ve ellerimle g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn yanaklar\u0131n\u0131 ay\u0131rd\u0131m. Tangas\u0131n\u0131n ipini yana s\u0131y\u0131rarak ba\u015flad\u0131m bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn deli\u011fini yalamaya\u2026.<\/p>\n \u201cOhhh\u2026 Eni\u015fte\u2026\u201d diye inledi. \u201cNeler yap\u0131yorsun bana\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n Zevk alan bald\u0131z\u0131m tir tir titriyor, ben yalad\u0131k\u00e7a g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc yukar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 oynat\u0131yordu. Birden sert bir hareketle k\u00fclodunu da belinden tuttu\u011fum gibi dizlerine kadar indirdim. Sonra da minik deli\u011fiyle beraber k\u00f6rpecik am\u0131n\u0131 da yalamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n K\u0131z\u0131n am\u0131 zevk sular\u0131yla s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klamd\u0131 zaten\u2026 Biraz d\u0131\u015f dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 dilleyince sars\u0131la sars\u0131la a\u011fz\u0131ma bo\u015fald\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Hemen aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131m, kendi e\u015fofman\u0131m\u0131 k\u00fclodumla birlikte dizlerime kadar s\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m ve zonklayan sikimi k\u00f6k\u00fcnden tutarak bald\u0131z\u0131n kal\u00e7alar\u0131 aras\u0131nda a\u015fa\u011f\u0131dan yukar\u0131 do\u011fru s\u00fcrtmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n \u201cMmmmhh\u2026 \u00c7ok g\u00fczel eni\u015ftemm\u2026\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131. Nefesini tutmu\u015f, heyecandan kalbinin att\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyabiliyordum.<\/p>\n Sikimin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e bald\u0131z\u0131n am\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131 aras\u0131na yerle\u015ftirip, am\u0131n\u0131n deli\u011fine hafif bask\u0131 yaparak dokundurdu\u011fumda,<\/p>\n \u201cOrdan yapma eni\u015fte\u2026 Ben bakireyim!\u201d dedi ve elini arkaya g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme atarak beni itti. Bu benim i\u00e7in g\u00f6tten sikebilirsin demek anlam\u0131na geliyordu.<\/p>\n \u201cTamam a\u015fk\u0131m\u2026 S\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 yok, k\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na dokunmayaca\u011f\u0131m!\u201d diyerek sikimin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmle \u0131slatt\u0131m. Bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn deli\u011fine de bolca t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fck b\u0131rakt\u0131ktan sonra, sikimin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn deli\u011fine dayad\u0131m ve a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fcklendim.<\/p>\n Sikim bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn deli\u011fini yara yara giriyordu. Ba\u011f\u0131racak, fakat i\u00e7eride uyuyan ablas\u0131 uyanmas\u0131n diye ba\u011f\u0131ram\u0131yordu. Bunun yerine i\u015faret parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131v\u0131rarak a\u011fz\u0131na sokmu\u015f, di\u015fleriyle s\u0131k\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Bunu f\u0131rsat bilerek bald\u0131z\u0131n omuzlar\u0131ndan tuttum, olanca g\u00fcc\u00fcmle y\u00fcklendim ve kalan\u0131n\u0131 da k\u00f6k\u00fcne kadar soktum g\u00f6t\u00fcne\u2026<\/p>\n Bald\u0131z ac\u0131dan ta\u015f kesilmi\u015fti, sikim k\u00f6k\u00fcne kadar g\u00f6t\u00fcnde \u00f6ylece donup kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sikimi g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7inde biraz oynat\u0131nca,<\/p>\n \u201cNe olur k\u0131p\u0131rdama eni\u015fte kurban\u0131n olay\u0131m!\u201d diye yalvar\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Mecburen bir s\u00fcre bald\u0131z\u0131ma kenetlenmi\u015f ve ikimiz de hareketsiz bir \u015fekilde bekledik. Sadece s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131, uzun sar\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fuyordum. Bir de \u00f6nden irice memelerini avu\u00e7lay\u0131p u\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 parmaklar\u0131mla eze eze zevk almas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fl\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n Asl\u0131nda \u00f6yle bald\u0131za kenetli bir \u015fekilde sabaha kadar durmak isterdim, fakat hem kar\u0131m\u0131n uyanma ihtimali vard\u0131 ve sikim de bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcnde hareketsizlikten yava\u015f yava\u015f sertli\u011fini kaybediyordu.<\/p>\n Daha fazla dayanamad\u0131m ve sikimi ileri geri oynatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bu arada bald\u0131z\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131 biraz da olsa hafiflemi\u015fti ve sikim yeniden sertle\u015fiyordu. Sikimi yar\u0131s\u0131na kadar \u00e7ekiyor, yava\u015f\u00e7a geri g\u00f6m\u00fcyordum bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcne.<\/p>\n Kendini kasar ve yeniden sokturmaz diye korkudan tamam\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karam\u0131yordum. Bu \u015fekilde h\u0131zlanarak g\u00f6t\u00fcne pompalamaya devam ettim. Ne kadar siktim bilmiyorum, fakat bir s\u00fcre sonra dizlerimin titredi\u011fini ve bo\u015falaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissettim. Son bir iki sert darbeyle bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcne bo\u015fald\u0131m\u2026 D\u00f6llerim \u0131l\u0131k \u0131l\u0131k bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc doldururken, a\u011fz\u0131ndan sadece,<\/p>\n \u201cOhhh\u2026 Eni\u015fteemm!\u201d diye sessiz bir inleme \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Bo\u015falmam bitince bald\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne kapakland\u0131m, bald\u0131z\u0131n ensesini boynunu kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcp yalayarak,<\/p>\n \u201cSeni seviyorum a\u015fk\u0131m!\u201d dedim ve sikim bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcnde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcp de p\u0131rt\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kana kadar o pozisyonda kald\u0131k. \u00c7ekildi\u011fimde bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcnden d\u00f6llerim bacaklar\u0131na do\u011fru s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. Bald\u0131z hi\u00e7 k\u0131m\u0131ldamadan,<\/p>\n \u201cEni\u015fte ak\u0131yor, pe\u00e7ete ver \u00e7abuk!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n Hemen sehpada duran pe\u00e7etelere uzand\u0131m ve bald\u0131za verdim. Bald\u0131z g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc ve bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 silerken ben de banyoya girip sikimi y\u0131kad\u0131m geldim. \u00dcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fczeltip bald\u0131zla \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131k.<\/p>\n Bir s\u00fcre bald\u0131zla ayakta \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp elle\u015ftikten sonra, bald\u0131z,<\/p>\n \u201cEni\u015fte hadi git yat art\u0131k, ablam fark\u0131na varmas\u0131n!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n \u201cTamam a\u015fk\u0131m!\u201d deyip, bald\u0131z\u0131 son bir kez \u00f6p\u00fcp, gittim kar\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131na yatt\u0131m.<\/p>\n Kar\u0131m arkas\u0131n\u0131 yan d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f, ruh gibi uyuyordu. Az \u00f6nce bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc sikti\u011fim akl\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yordu, sikim yeniden kaz\u0131k gibi oldu. Kar\u0131m\u0131n k\u00fclodunu s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131p sikimi \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m ve arkadan am\u0131na soktum. Kar\u0131m uyan\u0131r gibi oldu ve uyku sersemli\u011fiyle,<\/p>\n \u201c\u00dcffff yaaa, uykum var, yapma!\u201d diye m\u0131zm\u0131zland\u0131.<\/p>\n Fakat kar\u0131m\u0131 dinlemedim, kar\u0131m\u0131n am\u0131n\u0131, bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n am\u0131n\u0131 sikti\u011fimi hayal ederek siktim ve bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek uyudum. Ertesi g\u00fcn hep birlikte kahvalt\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yap\u0131p, kar\u0131mla \u0130zmir\u2019den ayr\u0131ld\u0131k.<\/p>\n Art\u0131k ayda birg\u00fcn paras\u0131z izin kullan\u0131yorum ve hafta i\u00e7inde sabah i\u015fe gidiyormu\u015fum gibi evden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum, arabama atlay\u0131p son gaz do\u011fru \u0130zmir\u2019e bald\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131na gidiyorum. Bald\u0131zla bir saat sevi\u015fip, yine son gaz eve geliyorum.<\/p>\n \u00c7ok yorucu oluyor, fakat bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc sikmeye de\u011fer, bald\u0131z \u0130zmir\u2019de de\u011fil de taa Japonya\u2019da bile olsa, yine gider g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc siker gelirim.<\/p>\n Bir bald\u0131z\u0131m var, bu sene 18 ya\u015f\u0131na girdi, ama afet mi afet bir \u015fey\u2026 Her g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde akl\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131mdan al\u0131yor. Yuvarlak hatlar\u0131yla, s\u00fctyenlerine s\u0131\u011fmayan g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleriyle, y\u00fcr\u00fcrken iki yana sallanan ta\u015f gibi kal\u00e7alar\u0131yla, a\u00e7\u0131k sa\u00e7\u0131k giyimiyle tam bir afet\u2026 Hele o g\u00f6t\u00fc yok mu, resmen kuduruyorum bald\u0131z\u0131n o g\u00f6t\u00fc i\u00e7in\u2026<\/p>\n Bald\u0131z\u0131m ge\u00e7en aya kadar ailesiyle kal\u0131yordu, ge\u00e7en ay \u0130zmir\u2019de \u00fcniversiteye ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130zmir\u2019de oturdu\u011fu daire bir apartman\u0131n \u00e7at\u0131 kat\u0131\u2026 \u00c7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in bald\u0131z\u0131n ta\u015f\u0131nmas\u0131na yard\u0131m edememi\u015ftim. O hafta sonu kar\u0131mla birlikte bald\u0131z\u0131 ziyaret etmeye ve bald\u0131z\u0131n evinde bir gece kalmaya karar verdik.<\/p>\n Sabah yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k, \u00f6\u011flende bald\u0131z\u0131mdayd\u0131k. Bald\u0131z\u0131ma ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ev hediyelerini verdik. Evde biraz dinlenip ho\u015fbe\u015ften sonra d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k ve bald\u0131z bize \u0130zmir\u2019i gezdirdi.<\/p>\n Ak\u015fama kadar dola\u015ft\u0131k. Ben de ak\u015fama kadar seksi bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n her yerini adeta i\u00e7tim. Abla karde\u015fi iki koluma takt\u0131m gezerken, iki koluma dayanan, s\u00fcrt\u00fcnen iki diri g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs, \u015fakala\u015farak g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015ferek doland\u0131k durduk. Art\u0131k iyice yorulmu\u015ftuk. Kar\u0131m,<\/p>\n \u201c\u015eimdi yeme\u011fi kim yapacak, yorulduk, zaten ba\u015f\u0131m da a\u011fr\u0131yor, hem \u00e7ok ac\u0131kt\u0131m.\u201d deyince, pizza yapt\u0131rd\u0131k g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fck. Yeme\u011fimizi yedi\u011fimizde saat 22:00\u2019yi ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. Kar\u0131mla bald\u0131z masay\u0131 toplarlarken, ben de hediye ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z DVD oynat\u0131c\u0131y\u0131 kurdum, hemen denemek istiyordum. \u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Kar\u0131m,<\/p>\n \u201c\u015eampanyay\u0131 getir de patlatal\u0131m hadi! Karde\u015fimin yeni evini, okulunu kutlayal\u0131m bu gece\u2026\u201d dedi. \u015eampanyalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yudumlarken, bald\u0131z filmlerden birini se\u00e7ti,<\/p>\n \u201cBunu seyredelim!\u201d dedi. Bir korku filmiydi se\u00e7ti\u011fi. Kar\u0131m da hi\u00e7 sevmez korku filmini, hatta nefret eder, be\u015f dakika bile bakamaz,<\/p>\n \u201cKorku filmi mi seyredece\u011fiz \u015fimdi, ba\u015fka bir \u015fey seyredelim!\u201d diye itiraz etti ve istedi\u011fi oldu. Komedi filmi seyrettik. Rahat olsun diye \u00fczerimizi de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015f, e\u015fofmanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 giymi\u015ftik. Saat yar\u0131m olmu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n \u201cNe yap\u0131yoruz, yatal\u0131m m\u0131 art\u0131k?\u201d dedi kar\u0131m\u2026 Bald\u0131z,<\/p>\n \u201cYaa abla, g\u0131c\u0131kl\u0131k etme de korku filmini seyredelim!\u201d dedi. Kar\u0131m da,<\/p>\n \u201cBen seyretmem, siz eni\u015ftenle seyredin\u2026 Korkudan sabaha kadar n\u00f6bet tutturmay\u0131n bana\u2026 Hem ba\u015f\u0131m \u00e7atlayacak gibi, uykum da geldi! Ne haliniz varsa g\u00f6r\u00fcn, ben yat\u0131yorum \u00e7ocuklar, iyi geceler\u2026\u201d diyerek yatmaya gitti.<\/p>\n Bald\u0131zla ba\u015f ba\u015fa kalaca\u011f\u0131mdan benim keyfime diyecek yoktu. Asl\u0131nda korku filmlerini ben de pek sevmem, ama gecenin bir yar\u0131s\u0131 seksi bald\u0131z\u0131mla beraber film izleyecektim. O yan\u0131mda olduktan sonra ne seyretti\u011fimin \u00f6nemi yoktu.<\/p>\n Bald\u0131z salonun lambas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcp geldi, \u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc koltu\u011fa yan\u0131ma oturdu. Kalan \u015fampanyay\u0131 i\u00e7erek korku filmini seyretmeye ba\u015flad\u0131k. Film ilerledik\u00e7e korku ve gerilim art\u0131yordu. Bald\u0131z da her korkun\u00e7 sahnede \u00fc\u00e7 bu\u00e7uk at\u0131yor, bana iyice sokuluyordu. Ger\u00e7ekten berbat, korku verici, kanl\u0131 bir filmdi, baz\u0131 sahnelerde ben bile korkuyordum.<\/p>\n Ruhlar, cinler, \u015feytan\u0131n cirit att\u0131\u011f\u0131 filmin yar\u0131s\u0131na yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda art\u0131k bald\u0131z bana iyice sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ben de elimi omuzuna, koluna, zaman zaman s\u0131rt\u0131na ve beline at\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n B\u00fcy\u00fck ekran televizyonda korkun\u00e7 olaylar ger\u00e7ek gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6d\u00fc patlayan bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 kendime \u00e7ekerek v\u00fccudunu iyice v\u00fccuduma yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n Bald\u0131z\u0131n dokundu\u011fum her yeri yan\u0131yordu. \u0130\u00e7inde bulundu\u011fumuz durumdan o kadar mutluydum ki, \u015fu korku filmi hi\u00e7 bitmesin, s\u00fcrekli bana sar\u0131ls\u0131n diye dua ediyordum. Fakat bir s\u00fcre sonra,<\/p>\n \u201cEni\u015fte, filmi pauseye al da bir tuvalete gideyim!\u201d dedi. G\u00fclerek<\/p>\n \u201cSak\u0131n korkudan alt\u0131na ka\u00e7\u0131ray\u0131m deme\u2026\u201d diyerek filmi durdurdum. Bald\u0131z kalkt\u0131. Y\u00fcr\u00fcrken sanki bana biraz kafay\u0131 bulmu\u015f gibi geldi. \u0130ki yana sallanarak gidiyordu. Salonda sadece televizyonun \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131, bir hayli karanl\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n Daha salonun ortas\u0131na varmadan ko\u015farak geri geldi yan\u0131ma\u2026 Ben ne oldu\u011funu anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken, bana sar\u0131larak ve titreyen k\u00f6ftecik dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fczerek,<\/p>\n \u201cEni\u015fte\u2026 Ben \u00e7ok korkuyorum\u2026 Ne olur, beni tuvalete g\u00f6t\u00fcrsene!\u201d dedi\u2026<\/p>\n \u201cK\u0131z\u0131m abartma bu kadar, alt taraf\u0131 film i\u015fte\u2026\u201d dedim teselli etmek i\u00e7in ama bald\u0131z\u0131n bu iste\u011fini ikiletmedim tabii\u2026 Hemen kalkt\u0131m,<\/p>\n \u201cGel bakal\u0131m\u2026 Beraber gidelim. Yoksa ger\u00e7ekten ka\u00e7\u0131racaks\u0131n alt\u0131na\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cAbartm\u0131yorum eni\u015ftee\u2026\u201d dedi. \u201cAma ger\u00e7ekten korkuyorum. \u0130nan bana\u2026 Eve ta\u015f\u0131nal\u0131 ne kadar oldu? Daha al\u0131\u015famad\u0131m zaten\u2026 \u00d6d\u00fcm patl\u0131yor \u015fu anda\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n Bald\u0131zla birbirimize sar\u0131larak tuvalete do\u011fru gittik. Tuvaletin kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p lambas\u0131n\u0131 yakt\u0131m,<\/p>\n \u201cHadi gir de i\u015fini g\u00f6r!\u201d dedim. Bald\u0131z tuvalete girdi, tam kap\u0131y\u0131 kapatacakt\u0131m,<\/p>\n \u201cKapatma eni\u015fte, korkuyorum!\u201d dedi, ben de a\u00e7\u0131k b\u0131rakt\u0131m,<\/p>\n \u201cTamam a\u00e7\u0131k kals\u0131n. Sen i\u015fini g\u00f6r\u00fcrken ben de ablana bak\u0131p geleyim.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cNe olur gitme eni\u015fte\u2026 Korkuyorum diyorum sana\u2026 B\u0131rakma beni\u2026! \u015eampanyadan ba\u015f\u0131m d\u00f6n\u00fcyor zaten, y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131p kal\u0131cam \u015fimdi\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n Kap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda \u00f6ylece kalakald\u0131m. Bald\u0131z benim bakmama ald\u0131r\u0131\u015f etmeden, biraz da i\u00e7ti\u011fi \u015fampanyan\u0131n etkisiyle olmal\u0131, e\u015fofman\u0131n\u0131 dizlerine kadar s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131verdi.<\/p>\n Ben a\u011fz\u0131m bir kar\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131k hayretle izlerken ard\u0131ndan k\u00fclodunu da indirdi ve klozete oturdu, i\u015femeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde durdu\u011fum ve onu izledi\u011fim halde hi\u00e7 \u00e7ekinmiyor, mahcup bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fle bana bakarak i\u015fini g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n Heyecandan \u00f6lecektim nerdeyse\u2026 K\u00fclodunu s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131rken o kaymak gibi amc\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Hafif sar\u0131mt\u0131rak t\u00fcyleriyle \u00f6yle i\u015ftah a\u00e7\u0131c\u0131 bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcyd\u00fc ki\u2026<\/p>\n Bald\u0131z ise, sanki yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gayet normal bir \u015feymi\u015f gibi, g\u00f6zlerimin i\u00e7ine bak\u0131p g\u00fclerek i\u015fiyordu. O anda sikimin kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve e\u015fofman\u0131m\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc zorlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettim.<\/p>\n Anlamas\u0131n diye sol elimi e\u015fofman\u0131m\u0131n cebine sokup sikimi bast\u0131r\u0131yordum. \u0130\u015femesi bitince tuvalet ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131yla am\u0131n\u0131 kurulad\u0131, \u00f6nce k\u00fclodunu \u00e7ekti sonra da e\u015fofman\u0131n\u0131,<\/p>\n \u201cBittiiii!\u201d dedi g\u00fclerek. Ellerini y\u0131kad\u0131, yine birbirimize sar\u0131larak salona d\u00f6nd\u00fck.<\/p>\n Koltu\u011fa oturduk yine, birbirimize sar\u0131larak filmi kalan yerinden izlemeye devam ettik. Bu sefer ben elimi hafif hafif bald\u0131z\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131nda yukar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 ok\u015fayarak beline ve kal\u00e7alar\u0131na indiriyordum ve belli belirsiz bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n kal\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fuyordum.<\/p>\n Bald\u0131z da ya ger\u00e7ekten filmden korktu\u011fundan, ya da ho\u015funa gitti\u011finden korkuyormu\u015f gibi yaparak, bana daha da sokuluyordu ve dirse\u011fini kalkm\u0131\u015f sikime bast\u0131r\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Film bitti\u011finde ikimiz de bir s\u00fcre hareket etmeden o pozisyonda kald\u0131k, ikimiz de kalkmak istemiyorduk. \u0130zmir bizim memleket gibi de\u011fildi. Merkezi bir semtteydik, insanlar sabaha kadar sokaklardayd\u0131, geziyor e\u011fleniyorlard\u0131. Sokaktan ba\u011f\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131 g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcl\u00fc sesler gelince, bald\u0131z,<\/p>\n \u201cSokakta kavga ediyorlar herhalde eni\u015fte, pencereden bakal\u0131m hadi!\u201d diyerek koltuktan kalkt\u0131, beni de elimden tutarak kald\u0131rd\u0131. Bald\u0131z \u00f6nde, eli arkas\u0131nda elimi tutarak salonun penceresine gittik.<\/p>\n Pencereyi a\u00e7t\u0131 ve pencerenin denizli\u011fine dirseklerini koyarak a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bak\u0131yordu. Ben ise bald\u0131z\u0131n tam arkas\u0131ndayd\u0131m. Arkaya \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f top gibi yuvarlac\u0131k g\u00f6t\u00fcne ve a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f beline, o a\u00e7\u0131kl\u0131ktan g\u00f6r\u00fcnen tanga k\u00fcloduna bakarak kalk\u0131k sikimi s\u0131vazl\u0131yordum. Offf\u2026 B\u00f6yle seksi bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc olamazd\u0131<\/p>\n \u201cEni\u015fte, bak bak, birbirlerine \u015fi\u015fe at\u0131yorlar!\u201d deyince,<\/p>\n \u201cYapma ya\u2026 Dur ben de bakay\u0131m!\u201d diyerek bald\u0131z\u0131n arkas\u0131na kas\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131m ve \u00fczerine e\u011filerek a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bak\u0131yormu\u015f gibi yapmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n A\u015fa\u011f\u0131da kavga edenleri g\u00f6remiyordum, fakat umurumda da de\u011fildi. Benim derdim bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcne dayanmakt\u0131 ve bunu yap\u0131yordum. Bald\u0131z\u0131n yumu\u015fac\u0131k ve s\u0131cac\u0131k g\u00f6t\u00fc, e\u015fofmanlar\u0131m\u0131za ra\u011fmen sikimi ve kas\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 kavuruyordu.<\/p>\n \u00d6nce \u00fcrk\u00fctmemek i\u00e7in hareketsiz durdum arkas\u0131nda\u2026 Sonra bakt\u0131m hi\u00e7 bir tepki yok, k\u0131p\u0131rdanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Sikimi, bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc sikermi\u015f gibi, hafif hafif yukar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 oynat\u0131yor, ara s\u0131ra ileri bast\u0131r\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n Bu hareketlerimi biraz daha belirgin yap\u0131nca bald\u0131z\u0131n sesi ve hareketleri birden kesildi. Hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden ve hi\u00e7 k\u0131p\u0131rdamadan \u00f6ylece a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Bir an i\u00e7imden, (\u015eimdi boku yedim, \u015fimdi d\u00f6n\u00fcp tokad\u0131 patlatacak ve ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmaya ba\u015flayacak ve kar\u0131m\u0131 uyand\u0131racak, beni rezil edecek!<\/em>) diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ve kendime geldim. Arkas\u0131ndaki hareketlerime son verdim ve hafif\u00e7e geri \u00e7ekildim\u2026<\/p>\n Fakat bu sefer bald\u0131z g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc geriye iterek \u00f6n\u00fcme dayad\u0131 ve az \u00f6nce benim ona yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi, g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc yukar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 hareket ettirmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Bu resmen, bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n da bunu istedi\u011fi anlam\u0131na geliyordu.<\/p>\n Yine de kesin emin olmak i\u00e7in ellerimle bald\u0131z\u0131n yar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k belini iki yan\u0131ndan kavrad\u0131m ve hafif\u00e7e kendime \u00e7ektim. Ben \u00f6yle yap\u0131nca bald\u0131z da g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc daha \u00e7ok bast\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 sikime\u2026 Evet, art\u0131k bundan emindim. Bald\u0131z\u0131m da sevi\u015fmek istiyordu.<\/p>\n Yana yak\u0131la arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, hep hayalini kurdu\u011fum, d\u00fc\u015fleyerek otuzbirler \u00e7ekti\u011fim olay ger\u00e7ek oluyordu. Bald\u0131z\u0131mla sevi\u015fmek \u00fczereydik. \u0130nanam\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n Ellerimi biraz daha a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 kayd\u0131rarak, bald\u0131z\u0131n e\u015fofman\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f yava\u015f dizlerine kadar indirdim. Bald\u0131z\u0131n tangas\u0131n\u0131n ipi g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn aras\u0131na girmi\u015f, arkadan sanki g\u00f6t\u00fc \u00e7\u0131plakm\u0131\u015f gibi duruyordu. Arkas\u0131nda \u00e7\u00f6meldim ve ellerimle g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn yanaklar\u0131n\u0131 ay\u0131rd\u0131m. Tangas\u0131n\u0131n ipini yana s\u0131y\u0131rarak ba\u015flad\u0131m bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn deli\u011fini yalamaya\u2026.<\/p>\n \u201cOhhh\u2026 Eni\u015fte\u2026\u201d diye inledi. \u201cNeler yap\u0131yorsun bana\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n Zevk alan bald\u0131z\u0131m tir tir titriyor, ben yalad\u0131k\u00e7a g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc yukar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 oynat\u0131yordu. Birden sert bir hareketle k\u00fclodunu da belinden tuttu\u011fum gibi dizlerine kadar indirdim. Sonra da minik deli\u011fiyle beraber k\u00f6rpecik am\u0131n\u0131 da yalamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n K\u0131z\u0131n am\u0131 zevk sular\u0131yla s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klamd\u0131 zaten\u2026 Biraz d\u0131\u015f dudaklar\u0131n\u0131 dilleyince sars\u0131la sars\u0131la a\u011fz\u0131ma bo\u015fald\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n Hemen aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131m, kendi e\u015fofman\u0131m\u0131 k\u00fclodumla birlikte dizlerime kadar s\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m ve zonklayan sikimi k\u00f6k\u00fcnden tutarak bald\u0131z\u0131n kal\u00e7alar\u0131 aras\u0131nda a\u015fa\u011f\u0131dan yukar\u0131 do\u011fru s\u00fcrtmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n \u201cMmmmhh\u2026 \u00c7ok g\u00fczel eni\u015ftemm\u2026\u201d diye f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131. Nefesini tutmu\u015f, heyecandan kalbinin att\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyabiliyordum.<\/p>\n Sikimin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hafif\u00e7e bald\u0131z\u0131n am\u0131n\u0131n dudaklar\u0131 aras\u0131na yerle\u015ftirip, am\u0131n\u0131n deli\u011fine hafif bask\u0131 yaparak dokundurdu\u011fumda,<\/p>\n \u201cOrdan yapma eni\u015fte\u2026 Ben bakireyim!\u201d dedi ve elini arkaya g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme atarak beni itti. Bu benim i\u00e7in g\u00f6tten sikebilirsin demek anlam\u0131na geliyordu.<\/p>\n \u201cTamam a\u015fk\u0131m\u2026 S\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 yok, k\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na dokunmayaca\u011f\u0131m!\u201d diyerek sikimin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmle \u0131slatt\u0131m. Bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn deli\u011fine de bolca t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fck b\u0131rakt\u0131ktan sonra, sikimin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn deli\u011fine dayad\u0131m ve a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fcklendim.<\/p>\n Sikim bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn deli\u011fini yara yara giriyordu. Ba\u011f\u0131racak, fakat i\u00e7eride uyuyan ablas\u0131 uyanmas\u0131n diye ba\u011f\u0131ram\u0131yordu. Bunun yerine i\u015faret parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131v\u0131rarak a\u011fz\u0131na sokmu\u015f, di\u015fleriyle s\u0131k\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Bunu f\u0131rsat bilerek bald\u0131z\u0131n omuzlar\u0131ndan tuttum, olanca g\u00fcc\u00fcmle y\u00fcklendim ve kalan\u0131n\u0131 da k\u00f6k\u00fcne kadar soktum g\u00f6t\u00fcne\u2026<\/p>\n Bald\u0131z ac\u0131dan ta\u015f kesilmi\u015fti, sikim k\u00f6k\u00fcne kadar g\u00f6t\u00fcnde \u00f6ylece donup kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sikimi g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7inde biraz oynat\u0131nca,<\/p>\n \u201cNe olur k\u0131p\u0131rdama eni\u015fte kurban\u0131n olay\u0131m!\u201d diye yalvar\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n Mecburen bir s\u00fcre bald\u0131z\u0131ma kenetlenmi\u015f ve ikimiz de hareketsiz bir \u015fekilde bekledik. Sadece s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131, uzun sar\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fuyordum. Bir de \u00f6nden irice memelerini avu\u00e7lay\u0131p u\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 parmaklar\u0131mla eze eze zevk almas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011fl\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n Asl\u0131nda \u00f6yle bald\u0131za kenetli bir \u015fekilde sabaha kadar durmak isterdim, fakat hem kar\u0131m\u0131n uyanma ihtimali vard\u0131 ve sikim de bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcnde hareketsizlikten yava\u015f yava\u015f sertli\u011fini kaybediyordu.<\/p>\n Daha fazla dayanamad\u0131m ve sikimi ileri geri oynatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bu arada bald\u0131z\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131 biraz da olsa hafiflemi\u015fti ve sikim yeniden sertle\u015fiyordu. Sikimi yar\u0131s\u0131na kadar \u00e7ekiyor, yava\u015f\u00e7a geri g\u00f6m\u00fcyordum bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcne.<\/p>\n Kendini kasar ve yeniden sokturmaz diye korkudan tamam\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karam\u0131yordum. Bu \u015fekilde h\u0131zlanarak g\u00f6t\u00fcne pompalamaya devam ettim. Ne kadar siktim bilmiyorum, fakat bir s\u00fcre sonra dizlerimin titredi\u011fini ve bo\u015falaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissettim. Son bir iki sert darbeyle bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcne bo\u015fald\u0131m\u2026 D\u00f6llerim \u0131l\u0131k \u0131l\u0131k bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc doldururken, a\u011fz\u0131ndan sadece,<\/p>\n \u201cOhhh\u2026 Eni\u015fteemm!\u201d diye sessiz bir inleme \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Bo\u015falmam bitince bald\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne kapakland\u0131m, bald\u0131z\u0131n ensesini boynunu kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcp yalayarak,<\/p>\n \u201cSeni seviyorum a\u015fk\u0131m!\u201d dedim ve sikim bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcnde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcp de p\u0131rt\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kana kadar o pozisyonda kald\u0131k. \u00c7ekildi\u011fimde bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcnden d\u00f6llerim bacaklar\u0131na do\u011fru s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. Bald\u0131z hi\u00e7 k\u0131m\u0131ldamadan,<\/p>\n \u201cEni\u015fte ak\u0131yor, pe\u00e7ete ver \u00e7abuk!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n Hemen sehpada duran pe\u00e7etelere uzand\u0131m ve bald\u0131za verdim. Bald\u0131z g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc ve bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 silerken ben de banyoya girip sikimi y\u0131kad\u0131m geldim. \u00dcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fczeltip bald\u0131zla \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131k.<\/p>\n Bir s\u00fcre bald\u0131zla ayakta \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp elle\u015ftikten sonra, bald\u0131z,<\/p>\n \u201cEni\u015fte hadi git yat art\u0131k, ablam fark\u0131na varmas\u0131n!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n \u201cTamam a\u015fk\u0131m!\u201d deyip, bald\u0131z\u0131 son bir kez \u00f6p\u00fcp, gittim kar\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131na yatt\u0131m.<\/p>\n Kar\u0131m arkas\u0131n\u0131 yan d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f, ruh gibi uyuyordu. Az \u00f6nce bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc sikti\u011fim akl\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yordu, sikim yeniden kaz\u0131k gibi oldu. Kar\u0131m\u0131n k\u00fclodunu s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131p sikimi \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m ve arkadan am\u0131na soktum. Kar\u0131m uyan\u0131r gibi oldu ve uyku sersemli\u011fiyle,<\/p>\n \u201c\u00dcffff yaaa, uykum var, yapma!\u201d diye m\u0131zm\u0131zland\u0131.<\/p>\n Fakat kar\u0131m\u0131 dinlemedim, kar\u0131m\u0131n am\u0131n\u0131, bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n am\u0131n\u0131 sikti\u011fimi hayal ederek siktim ve bald\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek uyudum. Ertesi g\u00fcn hep birlikte kahvalt\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yap\u0131p, kar\u0131mla \u0130zmir\u2019den ayr\u0131ld\u0131k.<\/p>\n Art\u0131k ayda birg\u00fcn paras\u0131z izin kullan\u0131yorum ve hafta i\u00e7inde sabah i\u015fe gidiyormu\u015fum gibi evden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum, arabama atlay\u0131p son gaz do\u011fru \u0130zmir\u2019e bald\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131na gidiyorum. Bald\u0131zla bir saat sevi\u015fip, yine son gaz eve geliyorum.<\/p>\n \u00c7ok yorucu oluyor, fakat bald\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc sikmeye de\u011fer, bald\u0131z \u0130zmir\u2019de de\u011fil de taa Japonya\u2019da bile olsa, yine gider g\u00f6t\u00fcn\u00fc siker gelirim.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Bir bald\u0131z\u0131m var, bu sene 18 ya\u015f\u0131na girdi, ama afet mi afet bir \u015fey\u2026 Her g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde akl\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131mdan al\u0131yor. Yuvarlak …<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[36,39],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1035","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-seks-hikayeleri","category-sex-hikayeleri"],"yoast_head":"\n